I’ve passed my Semester 3! Yeah!!! Well, it might not a big deal for some people out there BUT it is to me! I’ve worked my ass off for this semester, sacrificing lots of sleep, sacrificing precious time with my Mr R., sacrificing time which meant to spent with mom, my angel and friends! And it’s all worth it at the end of the day! ha! I’m in the mood for travelling!!! Wooo!
Thank you!
I would like to thank all those wonderful people who sent me sms birthday wishes early in the morning and those sweet people who sent their Pink Angel to deliver their birthday wishes and gift to my office. THANK YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!! You guys are the greatest!!!! And you people sometimes REALLY SURPRISED ME from the things you do!!!! ha! I’m really touched. Thank you, once again, to my beautiful friends for being Joey’s Friend!
Mental Torture! He’s killing me slowly with his words and breathe…
I’m wondering, are there bosses out there behaving like the way my boss do. He’s my assassin! He’s my mental torturer! He’s my boss from hell! I simply don’t understand why does he love being a prick? He has a big pointy nose, still it doesn’t give him the right to be a "poker"! Whatever we do, doesn’t seems to please him at all! Do we have to go down on our knees and kiss his stinky feet? Or maybe he would prefer us to give him a good squeeze on his balls? Yeww.. No way! Not in a million, billion or zillion years! I’m sick and tired of the games he’s always playing! Sickening boss from hell!!!! Psycho! Pervert! Ass+hole! D***head! Wanker!
Always saying one thing but ended up doing another. Is that the previlege for all bosses? Good for them and bad for employees. But then again, so what they are bosses, without employees the company won’t even move an inch closer to success. Colleague once mentioned wherever a secretary go, the situation will still be the same, ‘cos bosses are all the same. Nay, I don’t think so. Shouting and yelling without a given realistic reason at employees? That’s so unprofessional!
Need to find someone to blame? Look for Joey! She’s the best scapegoat! Mehhh! ARghh… What does he really want from me? I walked toward the left, he yelled and slammed the desk! I move to the right, he screams like he never did before! I move either front or back, he verbally abused me! I stayed put without moving an inch, he roar right infront of my face, forcing me to smell his "After-Smoke" frangrance breathe and with his salivia splattering all over my face! I’m not joking and definitely not exaggerating the scenario! I’m now crossing my fingers, hoping for the best to get a better job and a boss who at least has his head on his shoulder and not in his ass!
Ahhh Haaa!! Something which I’ve been waiting for a looong time is actually happening! Thank God there’re observant souls out there! What took you so long?!
Just read an article from the Straits Times about Litter Bugs in Singapore. I was both embarrassed and slightly suprised with the way how Singaporeans really think! Let me quote a sentence which was in the article "KEEPING a coffee shop clean is the owner’s responsibility and not that of the patrons, said more than a third of Singaporeans interviewed for an ongoing survey." So does that mean if I were to visit someone’s place and dirty their floor, it should be their responsibility and not mine? Hmmm… I like that idea! Let the splatter begins! Duhz! Oh please! That’s simply stupid and irritating! 60 % of the offenders are our young Singaporeans! I guessed the lifestyle here has gone way too comfortable with the use of maids at home. Another sentence, quoting from the Straits Times "A polytechnic student once said to her that ’she had maids to clean up after her at home, and that she litters out of habit when she is outdoors’" Singaporeans are seriously getting very lazy and always full of excuses (sounds a little like myself! I meant the lazy part! ha!)! Although the article shows that only a small percentage of Singaporeans are behaving in that manner but please bear in mind, Singapore is not a big island and turning it into a Dirt Wonderland, it does not take much of an effort at all!
Singapore used to be strict on this measure but now, look around us, it’s no longer clean and green, it’s now dirty and smelly (compared to 10 years back, oh my..I’m seriously aging!). Does someone out there have a time machine which I can use to travel back to 1990 just for ten minutes, in hoping to recapture the Beautiful Clean and Green Singapore which I missed so much. I’m not a greedy girl! Ten minutes, it’s enough to keep me going for another 10 years.
aRGHH… I can’t stand it! *Warning* For those who has low level of tolerance for Complaints, please do yourself a favour do not read any further beyond here.
Humans! Selfish Humans! If I have magical power, I would turn that person into a farm pig! No, a farm chicken, waiting to be slaughter and deep fried! Once again, the earth is in tremour (Some of you should know whom I’m referring to by now, seeing the word "TREMOUR")! I’m lucky this time, the flying dagger is not thrown onto my back, it’s on someone else’s back. That stab was OUCHHHH! A bad one… That Farm Chicken (I’ve decided to call the person that for now), is such a loud, insensitive, selfish, peabrain sucker! Pardon me for my language! But that’s the way that FC is! I can’t stand that FC’s way of doing things. I told FC off but FC just gave me the sticking out tongue kind of face. Simply stupid! Just because of wanting to save own arse and sacrificing the other’s job (maybe), what kind of human being are you?
Next! About that BLN (Big Long Nose) Boss of mine. Sometimes I would secretly wished that he could not talk for a month! Since morning till now, my name seems to be his favourite word! Joey! Do this! Joey! Please shred this! Joey! Take away this! Joey! Clear the rubbish! JOEY! Format this! JOOOEY! The machine is stuck, goddamned it! JOEY! PUT SOME PAPER IN THE F****** PRINTER! For every 15 minutes, my name fills the air in the office. Do I bloody hell look like a freaking maid or what? Should I say,"Yes Sir! Coming coming coming!" or "Sir, right away sir!" and scrambled around like a fat rat with cheese stuff in its mouth and charging towards to get more cheese? Oh please! Get lost BLN! Well, I said it but not in that manner. Instead, I said,"Can I just bloody do it later, I’ve much more important things to do than slotting papers into the damned printer!" Whoops! I think I’ve lost it. Oh well! Who cares! I can’t always let him have his way! So what he’s my boss? Fire me if he wants, I don’t care anymore. Five years in this stupid company, I had it! It took me long enough to realise that I’m a fool working for them for so long. Why do I allowed myself to be taken advantage of? Why do I always let it pass by me that easily (I meant my anger)? What am I fearing of actually? Why didn’t I learn to stand up for my own rights in the past? Stupid Joey! Hope it’s not too late for me to learn now!
The late nights studies have taken away my soul!
Every single day, the moment when I wake up, I could feel my energy level getting lower. My books have slowly sucked away my energy! Joey is seriously injured, mentally. The stress level keeps rising every moment as the exam count down starts since.. I can’t remember when. From a bubbly, strange, happy girl, I became a grouchy, grumpy, irritating and insensitive old bag!
Two more weeks, I’ve to hold my breathe for another two more weeks! Cheer for me, my friends! I’ve been having dreams about my studies and classmates for consecutively 3 days! No, 4 days to be exact. Arggh.. And when I rest on my work station for a few minutes, I would jumped up for no reason and grabbed my calculator
Stress A + Stress B = Over-Sensitive + Insecurity + Imaginary Mind At Best
Reports, school and work is my only "pleasure" in my life right now. I’ve totally lost the power of being me. I mean ME, Myself… Myself? I’ve transformed into an over-sensitive + insecured + wild mind girl at this point of time. My mind seems to have a mind of its own? Hmm.. strange, back to the point. I’m starting to feel a little uncomfortable with such situation and every three months it got worse. Oh well, I’ve chosen it and I’ve another year to go, cheer for me you people out there! Bring out your pompoms, whistle, banners, whatever! ha! I know I can make a breakthru, within myself; if I try hard enough.
At an oversensitive, insecured and good at imagining stage, the pain from the past came back to haunt me and that’s definitely not a good thing. I’m trying hard to keep myself as happy as possible by watching my favourite korean drama. Erm.. I guess it did not help me in any way but making things worse! I was basically sobbing and laughing for that two whole hours! shh.. I know I’m strange! But at this stage, what do you expect? Oh well, what choice do I have? During this period of time, I’ve got to watch it, I mean watch myself. My emotions tend to overtake me very quickly in all situations, mood swing here I come!
My mind asked me a few questions: Can man learn to be reliable? Can I trust a man’s word? Can I trust myself to trust someone I love? And is love powerful enough to help me to trust again? I’ve came to a conclusion, I’m over paranoid when comes to relationship. I’ve no idea why, ever since… ahem, I’ve lost that trusting feeling towards my love ones, which means it includes him. But last night, I guess one small part of that trusting feeling came back. I can’t remember what we were discussing about but I do remember clearly when he repeatedly pinched my hand light, causing a strange sensation rushing through from my hand nerves to my brain, something struck me! I like that feeling, strange but acceptable. That whole sensation thingy points to only one door, he’s comforting me, assuring me and he loves me! ha! Well, he does! It feels like magic, time seems to be standing still (I know, it’s a little dramatic but please bear with me! ha!). And I know from that very moment, love and a little endurance potion is able to dissolved all imaginary and insecured thoughts. So, people out there, go get yourself some love! It might just help you in a way to dissolve your problems in style!
A friend forwarded this mail to me. It’s just so meaningful. Please do take a time to read this.
Did I Marry The Right Person?
>
>During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said,
“How
>do I know if I married the right person?” I noticed that there was a
large
>man sitting next to her so I said, “It depends. Is that your
husband?” In
>all seriousness, she answered, “How do you know?”
>
>Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it’s weighing
>on your mind.
>
>EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with
>your spouse. You anticipated his call, wanted his touch and liked his
>idiosyncrasies.
>
>Falling in love with your spouse wasn’t hard. In fact, it was a completely
>natural and spontaneous experience. You didn’t have to DO anything. That’s
>why it’s called “falling” in love.
>
>People in love sometimes say, “I was swept off my feet.” Think
about the
>imagery of that _expression. It implies that you were just standing there,
>doing nothing. Then something came along and happened to you.
>
>Falling is love is easy. It’s a passive and spontaneous experience. But
>after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It’s the natural
>cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother
>(if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens) and
>your spouse’s idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.
>
>The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think
>about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the
>initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry
>subsequent stage.
>
>At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, “Did I marry
the
>right person?” And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of
the
>love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone
>else. This is when marriages break down. People blame their spouse for
>their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.
>
>Extra-marital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the
>most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, church, a hobby,
>friendship, excessive TV or abusive substances. But the answer to this
>dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I’m not
>saying that you couldn’t fall in love with someone else. You could. And
>TEMPORARILY, you’d feel better. But you’d be in the same situation a few
>years later. Because (listen carefully to this):
>
>The Key To Succeeding In Marriage Is Not Finding The Right Person; It’s
>Learning To Love The Person You Found .
>
>SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It’ll NEVER
>just happen to you. You can’t “find” LASTING love. You have to
“make” it
>day in and day out. That’s why we have the _expression “the labour of
love”
>�because it takes time, effort and energy. And most importantly, it takes
>WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.
>
>Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things
>you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.
>
>Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there
>are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise
>program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship
>WILL make your marriage stronger. It’s a direct cause and effect. If you
>know and apply the laws, the results are predictable… you can
“make”
>love.
>
>Love in marriage is indeed a “decision “… Not just a feeling.
>
>~ Love is never silent, it has so much to say & it is our greatest
blessing
>when we give it away.
>
>May Love and Peace be yours always
Bond gone or bond stronger?
After tonight, will the bond be stronger than before or will it just fly away with the wind? I’m actually crossing my fingers, hoping for the best.
Things are clearer than before. Going to put a full stop to that issue on my side. What is done is done, no point crying over spilled milk. And since the word Sorry is out, take it and learn to accept as the way it is. If anyone feel unjust, that’s you and there’s nothing got to do with anybody else now. Why hold on to all grudges? Aren’t we friends? We are all grown ups and not playing the hating and ganging up game which we used to play when we were young, that’s silly! The matter is over, so let it rest and let time heal the wounds. FULL STOP!
At last, he’s coming back! I can’t wait to see him and recieve my bear hug! And of course not forgetting to introduce him to the new "family" member, PINKIE, or rather he prefers to call them the Stuff Army. ha! He’s strange! He’s touching down to Singapore between 4.00 - 5.00pm. Ooooohh! I’m so nervous! Damned! But I like this feeling! Though we’ve been communicating everyday through phone, since the day he left for his hometown till date, but I simply miss his silly cold jokes and swimming in his self-proclaimed blue/green/grey/brown eyes!
The Count Down…Plus the Drama
Since the day he left for his hometown till present, I’ve been counting down. It’s exactly 14 days 7 hours more to go before he returns.
Last Saturday I was struggling with myself, in regards to call or not to call him and letting him know that I missed him lots. After 2 hours of "internal" fightings , I finally gave in to that crazy thought of mine.
Every single punched on my cellphone’s number pad, would caused my heart to jumped twice as fast as the previous beats. No joke! Don’t ask me why,I’ve no answer to that question! Okie, back to pounding. "Hallo S*****(a nickname given to me by him)!" a high pitch, bubbly, chirpy, sweet, familiar voice came straight hammering my head after three rings! It was him! Okie.. I know it sounds kind of drama but then, that was exactly how I feel and was thinking at that moment! I replied back to that familiar sweet voice and we start chatting for at least 30 mins. He asked me,"Can I ask you a question before we hang up?" I goes," Uh-huh..Shoot!" He went silent for a minute and said," Well, are you going to tell me that you missed me lots?" Before I could reply, he said," I miss you s*****, alot too. But don’t worry, another week I’ll be back. Can’t wait to see you again!" I went completely silent. "Hallo? Are you still there?" I replied,"Uh-huh.. Still here… I do missed you like I’ve never missed you before. It feels so new. Thank you for missing me t*****." Then his turn to be in completely silent! What the heck! I heard a sniff at the end of the line and to ease the whole situation, I said," AND MOST OF ALL, I MISS PLAYING WITH T*****’S CUTE DOUBLE CHINSSSS!!!" And he let out a shy giggle! Whew… situation saved! He’s back to his old cute self again… At that moment, something magical happened. Sweet but painful.
