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Stress A + Stress B = Over-Sensitive + Insecurity + Imaginary Mind At Best

Reports, school and work is my only "pleasure" in my life right now. I’ve totally lost the power of being me. I mean ME, Myself… Myself? I’ve transformed into an over-sensitive + insecured + wild mind girl at this point of time. My mind seems to have a mind of its own? Hmm.. strange, back to the point. I’m starting to feel a little uncomfortable with such situation and every three months it got worse. Oh well, I’ve chosen it and I’ve another year to go, cheer for me you people out there! Bring out your pompoms, whistle, banners, whatever! ha! I know I can make a breakthru, within myself; if I try hard enough.

At an oversensitive, insecured and good at imagining stage, the pain from the past came back to haunt me and that’s definitely not a good thing. I’m trying hard to keep myself as happy as possible by watching my favourite korean drama. Erm.. I guess it did not help me in any way but making things worse! I was basically sobbing and laughing for that two whole hours! shh.. I know I’m strange! But at this stage, what do you expect? Oh well, what choice do I have? During this period of time, I’ve got to watch it, I mean watch myself. My emotions tend to overtake me very quickly in all situations, mood swing here I come!

My mind asked me a few questions: Can man learn to be reliable? Can I trust a man’s word? Can I trust myself to trust someone I love? And is love powerful enough to help me to trust again? I’ve came to a conclusion, I’m over paranoid when comes to relationship. I’ve no idea why, ever since… ahem, I’ve lost that trusting feeling towards my love ones, which means it includes him. But last night, I guess one small part of that trusting feeling came back. I can’t remember what we were discussing about but I do remember clearly when he repeatedly pinched my hand light, causing a strange sensation rushing through from my hand nerves to my brain, something struck me! I like that feeling, strange but acceptable. That whole sensation thingy points to only one door, he’s comforting me, assuring me and he loves me! ha! Well, he does! It feels like magic, time seems to be standing still (I know, it’s a little dramatic but please bear with me! ha!). And I know from that very moment, love and a little endurance potion is able to dissolved all imaginary and insecured thoughts.  So, people out there, go get yourself some love! It might just help you in a way to dissolve your problems in style!

A friend forwarded this mail to me. It’s just so meaningful. Please do take a time to read this.

Did I Marry The Right Person?
>
>During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said,
“How
>do I know if I married the right person?” I noticed that there was a
large
>man sitting next to her so I said, “It depends. Is that your
husband?” In
>all seriousness, she answered, “How do you know?”
>
>Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it’s weighing

>on your mind.
>
>EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with
>your spouse. You anticipated his call, wanted his touch and liked his
>idiosyncrasies.
>
>Falling in love with your spouse wasn’t hard. In fact, it was a completely
>natural and spontaneous experience. You didn’t have to DO anything. That’s
>why it’s called “falling” in love.
>
>People in love sometimes say, “I was swept off my feet.” Think
about the
>imagery of that _expression. It implies that you were just standing there,
>doing nothing. Then something came along and happened to you.
>
>Falling is love is easy. It’s a passive and spontaneous experience. But
>after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It’s the natural

>cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother

>(if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens) and
>your spouse’s idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.
>
>The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think
>about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the
>initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry
>subsequent stage.
>
>At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, “Did I marry
the
>right person?” And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of
the
>love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone
>else. This is when marriages break down. People blame their spouse for
>their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.
>
>Extra-marital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the
>most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, church, a hobby,
>friendship, excessive TV or abusive substances. But the answer to this
>dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I’m not
>saying that you couldn’t fall in love with someone else. You could. And
>TEMPORARILY, you’d feel better. But you’d be in the same situation a few
>years later. Because (listen carefully to this):
>
>The Key To Succeeding In Marriage Is Not Finding The Right Person; It’s
>Learning To Love The Person You Found .
>
>SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It’ll NEVER
>just happen to you. You can’t “find” LASTING love. You have to
“make” it
>day in and day out. That’s why we have the _expression “the labour of
love”
>�because it takes time, effort and energy. And most importantly, it takes

>WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.
>
>Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things
>you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.
>
>Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there
>are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise
>program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship
>WILL make your marriage stronger. It’s a direct cause and effect. If you
>know and apply the laws, the results are predictable… you can
“make”
>love.
>
>Love in marriage is indeed a “decision “… Not just a feeling.
>
>~ Love is never silent, it has so much to say & it is our greatest
blessing
>when we give it away.
>
>May Love and Peace be yours always