My Space

Last night I felt like I’m fighting a war! I just couldn’t sleep and trying to persuade myself to sleep was hard. He’s off to far far away hometown. This time I felt strange; unlike before, sad but still able to sleep. But last night, his image kept appearing before me! And the night before, I didn’t manage to sleep well too. I kept waking up in shocked and he pecked me on the lips and pat me to sleep! Not once but a couple of times within a few hours! How strange! Pecked me on my lips and pat me to sleep?! Definitely the first time and it feels so.. sweet. So comforting. He simply amazed me with his actions. Him, doing all such things, seriously, I’m still trying to digest the whole situation!

And last night before he left, he gave me a big hug and whispered that three magic words. Once again, he flew me to the moon in his arms. We never like to say that three words often like some couples do. That three words to us, only meant to be said when we have to. That’s the way to keep its value. And that’s us. 

This morning, the moment I opened my sleepy eyes, I saw an anglic sleeping face right infront of me. He was sound asleep and I just couldn’t take my eyes off that sweet face. He looked just like a baby, sleeping peacefully. This is the first time I see that side of him. When he’s awake, he’s a neat charming man. When he’s asleep, he looks just like a baby. I had an urged to touch his sweet face but I did not; afraid of waking up him up, so I just lay close, looking at every single part of his face and following closely to the rhythm of his breathing. 

I think I’ve elevated to the next level in life. This elevation gave me a new, strange yet sweet feeling. From unsure to sort of sure, to, I think I’m sure, to, I’m sure but not ready, to, I’m all set to go but just need some time to adjust into the next level in life. Confusing isn’t it? I guess it’s all about not rushing through things, believing and accepting the way it is. I used to be "too fast too furious" in relationships. So it all ended with big hoo-ha scenes. But in this case, I feel great, once again. My boat is soon to be reaching it’s dock. Near but still need to be careful. Oh well, anything can happened! Crossing my fingers for the best!

I guess, he and I have started to believe in us. Building up a relationship and trusting each other, is definitely not a one day or a month or a year job! It takes lots of effort and patience to build a solid foundation. It’s high time for me to change my status. ha! I just got to learn to accept the flow and enjoy  the ocean of sugar, once again. What comes may! 

A sweet friend of mine asked me, which season am I in now. Sweet, sour, spicy or bitter? I replied, sweet as I’m swimming in the ocean of sugar. So which season are you people in now?