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My heart is closed to blow up! Every morning.. EVERY MORNING I’ll get stupid nonsense from that person. Simply just can’t stand it! Walk away? Oh!How I wished I could do that! Cooped in this small place with such a narrow-minded person, how to survive through my day?! Everytime we talked, I can feel my blood pressure going way up and my heart pumping very fast. Can someone just stuffed her mouth with an old stinky shoe?! It’s been for so long and yet her behaviour is almost the same. I think next year I should come up with something, either I go and free myself from that person or I stay and go all crazy, ready to be blown up into pieces! hmmm.. I don’t want to die in such a stupid way, it’s so ugly!

ahhh.. I feel much better after blabbering out! But my heart is still pumping hard. I guess I’ve just put in too much time and effort in trying to help her. I better stop, it’s pointless to help someone who don’t even want to try helping herself.  Comes what may (that’s for her).

For the past few days, I’ve been feasting. I mean really FEASTING!

Wednesday I was invite for a chinese dinner by R and parents over at Peach Garden, Tanjong Pagar. Nothing shocking, they’ve over ordered. We had two steamers of soup dumplings, one big fish, one chicken cold dish, one beancurd skin cold dish, one plate of duck, one plate of vegetables and one plate of red bean pancake. All of those are for three big eaters (them) and one small eater (me), I was close to puking after the dinner! His parents are very nice and friendly as always. Duhz! I’m sounding as if it’s my first time meeting them! ha! They gave me Tommy Hilfiger, Tommy Girl perfume as my Birthday gift. WooooT.. I love perfumes!

Thursday lunch, had a birthday treat over at Hot Stones from Bernbern. Bad food & service but I try not to waste the food. Anyway, Bernbern said that meal doesn’t count! ha! Good! Japanese food in Chijmes, lay down your red carpet for the infamous Joey! Dinner? HOHOHO! It was my Company’s Thanksgiving Dinner at Marriott Hotel. International Buffet. End results? Too much and wants to puke again.. yeah again but I did not..

Friday night had dinner with R at One-Ninety, Four Seasons Hotel. Big meal again! But this time round, nice company, nice food and nice ambience. And guess what?! R gave me a TNTboxing Flexipass! I was close to tears when I recieved the birthday gift. He knows I wanted that badly but it was too expensive. i’m really touched, not by the amount he pay but touched by his behaviour. He told me I’ve mentioned to him about this TNTboxing thingy once. Gosh! I didn’t even remember myself talking to him about this! And how many guys can actually remembered what I said? *I crapped alot*  Touched, definitely.

Saturday night, it was R’s mom’s birthday dinner at Peach Blossom, Mertius Mandarin Hotel. Definitely big meal!!! We had one big piece of cod fish each, one bowl of soup each, four big slices of pork ribs (very tender!!!), one big plate of vegetables with tofu, one plate of chicken, one plate of duck and red bean paste pancake (again…). Just the thought of the dinner, I feel like puking!

Putting the puking aside, I would like to thank all those who have sent me their wishes be it through msn or sms. Thank you very much. And to those who have not to wish me, thank you still, for filling up my life with colours. Sincerely, thank you.

Sometimes I wonder…

Why can’t one understand that, so what age is catching up? So what one can’t get married before 30? So what one can’t get a bf? Instead of wasting time looking for nothing, please turned back and look at what have you gained for the past many years of your life. If none, what do you intend to do about it? Continue flushing them down into the toilet bowl? Or have a plan?

Have you ever wondered, what will you be doing, having and be after 5 years time? Some people just wants to get married before they reached their 30 dollars bill. I don’t deny that I’m not one of those people (that was few years back) but now, I rather go with the flow, not wanting to think about it anymore. I would rather concentrate on my own life and how I want it to be in future. Hardwork but with a full pocket of endurance bars, nothing is impossible! Sometimes, emotions would tricked one out from their intended goal. So lots of determination are needed too! hmmm.. sounds like a receipe of some sort of bake huh? ha!

I do believed that each and everyone has gone through bad patches but in a different way and level. If money is an issue, think of how one should start making their savings grow! If it’s something else which is sabotaging your life, do something about it rather than sitting at one corner whinning for pity coins. Relationship is definitely the last thing one should have in their mind, getting ready a plan and be a better person is the top most priority in the list.

Look at oneself in the mirror, before you try to act tough or smart to handle or change the situation.

A certain breed of men and women surfacing again. The name of the breed? For men, EPW - "Egoistic Pin Weaner" and for women, WYFB -"Where’s Your Freaking Brain".

Just read a blog about a lady, complaining about her boyfriend and his friends. To make the story short, the boyfriend and friends expect the lady to accept his behaviour of humping around. They need her to be "UNDERSTANDING" just like the rest of the "WYFB". Huh? Have to be understanding that boyfriend humped around like a donkey?! Ha! What is the world turning into? Why are such men still alive? And why are these peabrain women still allow to live? Damned! If the lady were to come across my blog and find the situation familiar, oh yes, I’m referring to YOU or maybe not. I believed there are many such men and women out there, do not ever want to use their heart to feel how much pain and damaged they could caused.   

p.s Open your palm wide for 2 second then clench your fist for 5 seconds, lastly  flick your centre finger out in a fast movement! That’s the sign I’m showing out to those EPW! Have a good day!