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Men and women, are they really consider equalised? Or not? Many men said, women are just a step below them and women claimed that What Men Can Do, Women Can Too. Just had a small discussion with a friend about men and women’s plaything. Men’s plaything are, women. What are women into then? In the modern world, men are women’s new toy. In the past, many women felt it’s dirty and down-right cheap. Nay, women can become men’s toy why can’t women have the same fun? That’s my concept. Fair and Square game.

But then again, how would men really feel if  women treats them like nothing but a toy, call them as and when they need to have fun and dumped them when they are done or bored with the same meatstick all the time? Would they feel the same as sensitive women (used tissue paper) or they would feel it’s a form of ego booster (the more the merrier)?

Men and Women

As I scurrying through the crowd in Raffles Place, a thought about men and women struck me!

Men are always complaining about women relying too much on them but did they really take a deeper look at themselves before pointing their fingers at women? In the olden days, men rely women on doing housework, cooking, washing, taking care of the kids and of course, let’s not forget about… sex. Women are just like men’s comfort zone, they are being "abused" as and when men like it. In the modern world now, women are becoming more independent and smarter; and most men are dependent on women more than ever now. In the past, women are men’s sex toy and now, men can be women’s sex toy too! Amazing changed! Some men can really feel the hurt when they are being "used" as women’s comfort zone. ha! Well, I guess it’s karma? ha!

This was supposed to be posted out 2 months back! ha! I’ve forgotten all about this post!

Something I’ve learnt today…

Just watched a touching movie, titled, Uptown Girl. People might think it’s a crappy show but then again, to those who have watched that movie, try to look deeper into it. It’s a movie about a girl just turned 20, learning how to be a real adult from a 8 years old girl whom is going through a bad patch herself. The 20 years old girl feared of growing up, never wanted to be responsible for what she said and done and lived life like there’s no tomorrow. She never listened hard enough to what other people have to say, she cares only about one person called ME. The 8 years old independent girl, came into her life and taught her a precious lesson, Grow Up and Be Responsible For One’s Action. And in returned the young girl learnt how to walk out of her fear instead of hiding behind the "egoistic screen". As what I’ve always say, life is like a big classroom and people around you, are your learning chapters. 

Crazy Donk gave me a good lesson too, on the 7 habits. He made me realised one thing about myself. I didn’t really hold onto my believes that well for the past few months and created a lots of mess for myself and others.

What I’ve learnt today from both lessons? Walked out of my own fear, hold onto my believes and get ready for the roller coaster ride…

What does it mean when one says,"I’m ready" or says," I’m sure! Very sure indeed!" How do they know that they are certain about the person or the situation they are going to face? And what gives them the full confidence to drive through in full speed?

Can anyone really be 100% sure about certain things or on that special someone?

This morning seems to be much more beautiful and colourful compared to the usual days. I’ve decided to kick some ass… ha! My bowl is overflowing with men and I’m getting sick and tired of it. Women love attention and I don’t deny that I don’t. But these few months, things are getting completely out of hand, at the same time, it actually helps me to see things much clearly than before. Guess R is the top scholar among all. Though he’s boring but then again, I felt quite comfortable when I’m out with him. He may be just the kind of man, I would like my kids to call dada. The rest of the herd? Nice but.. no thanks. I guess, by trying to imagine far out, helps to calm me down lots. So does it mean that I’ve made up my mind and wants to be a good girl?

I’m still contemplating in between should I go or should I not. Biting my upper lips and staring at my cup of coffee, ain’t going to do me any good.

what if I were to see somthing which I dreaded of? What if things turned out awkward? Should I just behaved generously, smile like an idiot and pretend nothing has happened? Or should I be my regular self, stop looking, ignored him totally and enjoy the attention given to me by other blokes? hmmm…

If he hadn’t say those things, I would have broughy my fat fart out of the pic… Men… Are nothing but troubles… at times. Women? Are nothing but greedy fat fart. ha! Never satisfied with what they have…

Last night I was suppose to study but I’ve ended up spending a few hours, watching some crappy show. Congratulation to the show! It actually managed to make me think.. Men the horny puss and Women the Drama Queen..

The difference between men and women? Males creatures with meatsticks who tends to read only the bottomlines of every sentences and women are empathy creatures with irresistable cat.

Why do I say men the horny puss? Well, I’ve been thinking back in all situations which I’ve been in and guess what?! Woala! They are just a bunch of act tough puss. When they are in a situation of making decisions, they tucked their tails in between their legs and start to whine. Some used violence to appease their unrested soul; oh there’s even better ones, they played the "Come look for me" game. They just couldn’t go for a face to face talk. Even if they do, we females have to be real direct with words and yet be tactful to avoid hurting the blockheads. Men are good in shifting their responsibilities and are definitely good in making us go soft on our knees by giving us that puppish look on their face. Damned! 

Women the Drama Queen? Ha! Definitely! Which females are not drama? For small matters like not getting good services, they would scream and whine like the whole world owed them a big favour! I’m definitely not going to deny that I’m one of them too! ha! Best part is, they are never satisfied in their relationship, they just want more. When they are in a relationship with no obstacles YET, they will start to think," Why is the sea so calm?" So, stupid enough, at the back of their brain they’ve created some small "scenarios" and without "realising" it, they acted it out. Who caught the blaming game at the end of the day? The pussy men. And when they are in a relationship with lots of hurdles to cross, they complained and whined about it. At the end of the day, they would tell themself," It’s just part of life, if I love him, I should endured whatever shit he gives me." hmm.. it doesn’t sounds that good when someone say it out huh? ha! It’s not all about giving, it’s also about taking. Compromising is the key…

Relationships in between pussy men and drama queen without honesty, trust, communication and mutual respect is definitely a nono.

Should I say, it has been a great year for me?

I’ve got to know lots of new people and learnt quite a bit from them. Bad part is that, they left me standing in the rain crying by myself. Everyone expects me to be strong and independent but I’m just a normal woman who is full of emotions, just like any other women out there on the streets. Life is like a big classroom and people are like my lessons, everyday different chapters. Some chapters may leave a deep footprint in your heart whereas some don’t.

Many years later, pick up the book again and flip through the chapters, you’ll be thinking why did you ever let the opportunities slipped through you fingers.

It’s a long journey, till I know where I’m supposed to be and I don’t know if I can believe. When shadows fall and block my eyes, I am lost and know that I must hide. Many days I’ve spent drifting on through empty shores wondering what’s my purpose, wondering how to make me strong. I know I will falter and will cry . Sometimes it seems noone understands and I don’t even know why I do the things I do. Beneath those stormy skies, when Satan mocks and friends turn to foes, it feels like everything is out to make me lose control.. I feel weak and tired, can someone out there stretched out their warm hands and help me up?

Soon, I’ll be back with my bubbles and with new job! ha!

Stupidity kills…

Sometimes I just can’t help hating myself for what I am. Always getting myself involved with things and said things, which I know I should not. Without thinking of the consequence and go all out to help friends. Being stupidly helpful is dangerous. RIsking all, cost me to lose my smile and become gloomy.

I’ve been helping friends since my younger days and never realised that I could get myself into big trouble. I remembered once, I’ve helped a girlfriend of mine to fend of her ex-boyfriend and got into a fight with him. He was way bigger than me in size but I couldn’t care less, all in my mind was, wanting to help my gf to get away from the situation and that’s how the fight starts. It was foolish…

I’m always there to pick up shits for my girlfriends and never expect anyone to say thank you. That’s me. And that part of me always caused me to drop tears. It wasn’t a good feeling but after thinking about I’ve helped a friend, the tears dried up and I lit up with a smile. But this time round, I’ve lost my smile and my will to help. I’ve lost myself…