Zoom! The week just whized pass like a bullet train! Lots of projects to do, lots of things to think about and lots of housework to be done! ha! Guess a little blogging and gyming would do me good! Give me back my own space!
I did it again. I shouldn’t have said anything at all. It’s just so scary whenever words flow out from my mouth . But come to think of it, it might just save someone from a heartbreaker!
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Monday, monday, monday, monday! Guess this is the only monday which I don’t really have any blues in me! Totally! Whoopee!
Saturday night was out celebrating SC’s birthday with a bunch of crazy dudes and our "The Box". *wink* Angels, you know who I’m referring to! lol We only down two bottles of reds and that’s it! Weird.. Usually, the three of us would drink more than that amount, especially SC!In the past she would gulp down her reds and not sipping them! lol Hmm.. sign of aging? The night ended kind of early with supper! I was a little disappointed with the chilli in my noodles. Yeah, yeah, yeah.. Me and my chilli! I can’t help it!My tongue needs excitement! lol We were behaving like zombies when the clock struck 5am.. Damned! Should have brought a camera to capture that "beautiful" moment! lol
Sunday, was a slow one for me. I was lazing in bed till the sun rise up and gave me a hard one on the eye. sigh.. School work time!
Even though I’ve wacked out my weekend but I’ve managed to gain something in return. A good return. I’ve sort it all out…Firm is the main ingredient.
Love, what is love? Can anyone actually define the word in one sentence? or in a paragraph? or a full page? Some people believes in love at first sight, do you? Does feelings really just comes and goes as and when it wants to? Or it is just merely physcial attraction? What is a crush? Is there any difference in between love, liking and crush?
A few cases on hand makes me start racking my brains again. Why is that men would behave in that manner? If a man were to be persistant in wanting female to be his girl, two days after the couple dated, what does it mean? Desperate? Lonely? Physical attraction? Admiration? Just for the sake of looking for a girlfriend? or Love, that’s the word you people would use.
How do I look at it? I used to believe in love at first sight but not anymore. Certain things happened too quick in my life, just like having a 5 minutes wank in the washroom! Those things brought me back to the reality. Shan’t crap too much on that. What about people who can’t see and yet can fall for one another? What I’m trying to explain here is, love is not by seeing, it’s by feeling.
Do couples actually just get together as and when they wants to? Or they actually think twice before they act? Some friends of mine, just go with the flow. After the r/s flow got to a dead end, the tears gushed out like waterfall! For me, I would look at all aspects before I act nowadays. Used to be like the movie, "Fast & Furious" whatever it’s call. It always end up like a puddle of shit, fast in coming and fast to go. Now, I just try to be cool about it. If things don’t go my way, I’ll just grab my heels and walk away with a smile. It’s not end of the world yet! It never will be. lol
What aspects do I look at? Very simple, can I take the person for what he is… It doesn’t mean that you love that bf of yours, equals to you can take the person for what he is! Deep within, we all have the answers. In the initial stage, all bad stuff are covered up and left the good ones out on the shelves. When comes to the later part, bad stuff stinks and all are exposed. What happened then? I would have just left. But of course, turning around to look at it once in a while, is nice. It makes me feel like a fool and this fool has learnt her lesson! lol
I told a girl,"Don’t hurry it, take your time to get to know one another. If men thinks that you’re worth the wait, they’ll be patient. If not, they’ll just take their manhood with them and hunt for new preys." I wonder what made me say such a thing! It just came out from nowhere! hmmm… This girl I was talking about, she’s too keen on that guy, wants everything to turn out well but yet she wants to hold back her steps (contridicting huh?) Being a woman, be feminine yet must be firm with her decisions. For her case, I only have one sentence to wrap it up which is, she have no idea on what she wants and how to get it. But women, please do remember, do not play mind games. Men hate such stuff, am I right about it men?
Some pain in relationships are "self-baked". Men and women have different filters in their brains. Men hear things which women don’t, same goes for women’s situation. Women are more sensitive than men, men are like a piece of wood. No matter how much strength you use on them, they still won’t feel a thing. So how should we deal with men like this? Be straight-forward yet tactful with the words used. Meaning to say, men don’t take hints. They only read the facts and the bottom-line of the sentence. So no matter how sad or how big your ego is, just blah it out. BUT BE NICE.
And to those men who only treats women like sex machines, please dump them. Thou sex is nice but please do not abuse it.
Some people has been complaining to me about not updating my blog. Oh well, I’m back. For the past few days, my mind was running around naked in an empty room - Blank. Today? Words just seems to be streaming into my brain.
Last saturday had a great debate about Secret Societies Members. Should they be given a second chance? Should they be judged? Are they nice people by nature or they are born to be bad? Influenced by friends or environment they are in? etc..
Personally, I would agree on they should be given a second chance if the crime is not a big one and they should not be badly judged by the others. On the other hand, I do agree they should not be given a second chance if the crime is serious (e.g. rape, murder..etc) , ‘cos the question would turn around becoming " Who will give the victims a second chance?"
Should they be judged? I would shake my head in disagreement. Who are we to judge on others? And why should we point our fingers at them when they made a mistake, don’t we make mistakes too? Although the mistakes we made are not as bad as theirs but still, it’s not nice to pass a dead judgement on someone on his/her past mistakes.
Are they nice people by nature or born to be bad? I believed some are nice by nature and were misled by friends who are in gangs. By the time, they realised their mistakes, it’s too late. I don’t believe in born to be bad. It’s bullshit!
Families sometimes do have to play a big part when their kids cross over the border of mistakes. Guess that’s why parents are being punished for their kids wrongdoings.
Usual sunny day today..
Last night went for a quick workout in the gym because I was hoping to catch a glimpse of the fireworks from IOC Openings. I love fireworks, shoot up like a shooting star and falls down like meteorite rain. It was so hard to grab a cab from where I was( was standing somewhere near the Padang looking up in the sky like a fool, hoping that there will be more fireworks).
Left with no choice, I went to take a train to somerset. At least the chances of getting a cab there is 100% (heeren taxi stand)! Upon reaching there, the queue was shitty long! I mean, REALLY long! At that point of time, my mind was asking me,"WHERE THE HELL ALL THESE PEOPLE POPPED OUT FROM?!" Being the obedient "Puppet Singaporean", I joined the queue, anyway the cabbies always come fast. After waiting for ten minutes, the queue didn’t seems to be moving much but lots of green lighted cabs zoomed pass! It definitely aroused my curiosity! Popped my head out at the side (I was too short, so got to stretch my head out to the side..yeah yeah go ahead laughed your heart out!) I saw a car parked behind the taxi stand! It’s definitely obstructing the traffic flow as cabbies have to stop outside the yellow box in order to alight or pick up passengers. And not more than 5 cabbies can queue to pick up passengers. And the queue was shitty long! I was really furious! I swear you could fried an egg on my head! lol Everyone was piss off but noone did anything. As the "not afraid of public embarrassment" self, I went up to that dumbass, knocked on his window and tell him off! But that ass didn’t even look me! Damned! I felt so insulted but I couldn’t do anything further as my cabby was approaching, I don’t want to wait for the next one so I glared at that guy, slapped my forehead (meaning to tell him, he’s brainless) and hopped into my cab.
Sometimes, I just don’t understand why some people couldn’t be alittle more considerate when doing certain stuff. I don’t mean to say that they have to be the "Puppet Singaporeans", just be a little more considerate to others. Is that really hard?. That handful of people really ought to be taught a good lesson, fining them is definitely not enough and I reckon violence would work too. hmmm… Wonder what would work on them? Jail? Nay.. I doubt so too.
My day was good, nothing for me to complain about but I couldn’t help feeling all emotional. Certain things have been going through my mind like a roller coaster. A certain point of time, it took me so high up and all of the sudden it just charged straight down like a rocket. Guess it’s just one of those days.
Some guys can be so wonderful yet unpredictable and some guys can be so boring yet nice to be with. Fun and wonderful times have it’s own life span and at a certain period, it will cause insecurity and disappointment. Yet boring life can sometimes be really comfortable when looking further into the futures (secure? of course it’s there!) "Fun and wonderful times" in my life have to be erased off soon. I can live in a world without attention but I can’t live in the world full of confusion and insecurity. (Guess I’ve just decided on that ever since a certain sentence popped out from someone. Major Disappointment with a HUGE plus!)
Insecurity and attention are totally two different things. Insecurity always happened quite often in relationships (all kind of relationships, even in between dogs and their owners) I’ve a friend, he’s divorcing his wife this year. Reason given? He said," I’ve never loved her! She’s the one who forced me into it, just because of the stupid condo! I can’t stand her now! I just got to leave her!" What happened to the wife? She said," He’s always asking me for money and I gave him. I even closed one eye when he fling around, all because of… I love him. And now he wants to leave me! Why did he agree to marry me in the first place?! For the condo? He could have said no!…" Obviously, the woman is feeling insecured and trying to use money to keep him by her side. The sad story has lasted for 3 years and yes, the guy has been fooling around for that long, and yes, the woman have been silly to support him for that long.
Another story, let’s call her M, M and the guy have not been seeing each other often. The guy said,"I’m busy with my work." That’s the excuse given everytime. Eventually, M broke down and cried. Why did M cry? A handful of people will think, M wants attention. Actually the answer is, no, she’s feeling insecure. Why? Females are sensitive creatures, they are easily shaken emotionally, especially to such situations. Their mind would churned wildly, coming out with the impossibles. Trust and honesty will have to play a big part in this game but how many females can take it? So, they’ll start to do certain silly things to gain ATTENTION. It’s because of insecurity which leads to attention needed. If the tables were to turn around, same goes for the guys, they would definitely feel that way too.
Guys always love to think that all women needs attention 24/7. Well, guess they are wrong on that. Nowdays, women are learning to be stronger and tougher as they grow. If guys know how to behave themselves, will women reacted strongly in that manner? Mostly not. Some extreme cases would have to take great care. lol
After a serious thought, Fun & Excitement or a Boring Settled Life… I chose the latter. In the past, you would have to kill me first to vote for a boring settled life but after a huge disappointment, it makes me reaslied that how silly I could be. Before the disappointment, I’m like using a feather to crack an egg. After the disappointment, I’ve decided to pass on the egg to another silly woman. I’m silly woman no more!
Back from a relaxing trip, bringing back with me good memories and burnt skin! lol Took quite a number of pictures too. The place is quite run-down but the friendly people and fantastic sceneries managed to make up for all the wrongs. Thou I didn’t get to do any of the sea sports or activities which was provided by the hotel, I still had a good weekend just by exploring the whole beach area (from Golden Beach Hotel to Pulai) I walked. It’s actually quite fun, walking along the beach with sea water splashing at your feet and sun piercing into your skin. lol Piercing.. sound alittle sadist huh? Oh and scurrying little white crabs! That was really hilarious! I was chasing after one of them and it couldn’t find any shelter so it charged right at my feet and.. hid in between my toes! lol Damned! Should have taken a pic of this small funny thing! lol
Went to a small "river" behind all the chalets and saw alot of mud skippers! lol I saw one cute mud skipper jumping furiously at one spot and I let out my weird loud laughter, I scared the shit out of the whole bunch of mud skippers settling nearby. Unitedly, they jumped to the other side of the "river" What a sight! lol They are just so small and cute!!! lol After that, I went to plant my OWN COCONUT tree near the river! I think I should go back in another 5 five years time to check on it! lol
At night, the sky was clear and brightly lit by a whole lot of twinkling stars and I thought I saw the Milky Way!Was I dreaming? Or was I not? hmmm.. It was amazing!! Nearby where my room was, there’s a small little "jungle" guess what I saw? Fireflies! Woah! That really blew my breathe away!
