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Beautiful morning today, a nice start to rack my brains again. Brain have been dead since friday! Went partying with friends. I’ll never want to go to that place anymore! It’s killing my ears! It took me two days to be fully recovered! argh.. Those are the bad part of the night, other than that, it was great!
Saturday went over to a friend’s place to chill, nice cosy place. Nothing much to talk about in here for that night. lolx

One thought, do all guys behave the same? After "having a full meal" and tata babe! Most of my friends do! You guys know who you are huh! lolx I don’t know why, sometimes I would feel quite strongly about such things. I don’t deny I did it twice stupidly.(yeah yeah start cursing and swearing at me, I know it’s bad, no good ;o( ) After the whole wooha, I feel kind of stupid. Maybe I’m just expecting something to happen in my life for a change and maybe just hoping that the right guy would appear soon. Realised that, guys don’t usually take those girls seriously(those who gave themselves away willingly). Find them too slutty? Or thinking why should they bother so much since they are just having fun?

I’m kind of cross with myself sometimes. Always tend to believe what others say and never wanted to doubt their words. Good guys are hard to come by nowadays. I wonder when will my "good guy" comes by, sweep me off my feet and protects me from all those bastards out there…

It’s just so weird, this morning my mood was fantastic now… dampen by boss and wife. This wife of his, is plainly the weirdest person I’ve ever met! Her mood changes like the weather! I’m actually quite sad, she used to be a real sweetie but after marriage it changes her into a hot tempered air-headed bim. I really wonder what causes the change and how can my poor boss take her nonsense? Even my colleague can see that, they don’t seems to be getting along very well. Well, maybe R might be right after all! Couples should not try to work together unless both are handling different workloads and not crossing each other’s path and try not to. Working in this company for so many years, this is the first time seeing Boss eating his lunch with his door closed. I wasn’t around when the arguement got heated up. When I came back to my office, I sensed something is wrong. Women’s senses never goes wrong! heh! By picking up pieces here and there, came to know that boss argued with wife because of me. But about the wife claiming that Boss lied to her, that I’m stumped! What did he lie to her? He has always been so truthful and honest with her! I just couldn’t get that part right… Sometimes, it’s really annoying with her around. When she’s not in the office, the three of us (boss, colleague and I), were so happy in the office and definitely no sulky mood! We’ll joke, have fun and sometimes serious talks or put in new ideas, etc. When she’s around? Ha!Three of us don’t talk much to each other ‘cos we know wife don’t like it… Life in office is so tough! Hope boss can put down his pride for just a few hours to get a better today!

The weather is just so unpredictable! Yesterday I was freezing my arse off and now? I’m baking myself in the office!
The view I’m facing… is terrific! It does have that calming effect which I really need when I’m down with stress!

Sometimes, just by sitting in the front porch, my mind would just drifted into the far far away land.. It’s dumb but I like it!
Yesterday, I’ve received an email from a half korean half japanese friend, he’s really cool! I never knew that in that part of the world there is actually someone who really thinks like me! I thought I’m the only stupid weirdo around! Well, now I’ve company! hahahaha How many guys would forsake their opportunities to just make a small disabled kid smile? How many guys would forsake his time to relax just to bring the physically disable kids out for a small trip? Guess not many huh.. That’s my friend!
In this world, everyone only talks about money and themselves. How many people would actually think about others before they do or say anything? And how many people would give up their own pleasure to help others to seek theirs? hmmm.. Oh and how many people would actually be able to stop thinking about money for 5 minutes? It’s always all about money, oneself, money, oneself and so on so forth. This world is getting not that simple anymore. It’s true that one have to upgrade as not to be outcast by others but during the process of upgrading, does one have to think of only themselves all the time and start competing against the others to become the best out of the herd? When competition starts, people turns ugly, they only mind their own business and try to stay clear of troubles even thou they know they can actually do something to help!
I always love to help people who are in need of a listening ear or in need of a helping hand to pull them up. That’s why I’m always caught in the net! hahahaha But I’m happily jumping in the net as I know one day someone as nice would help me in return of my kindness! Naive? Yeah maybe but it pays well sometimes.

The weekend just whiz passed right under my nose! Anyway… WHAT A WEEKEND! Friday went to R’s place for his homecooked meatcakes, YUMMY! Heavenly! That was his first time seeing me with my curls in person. He simply just couldn’t take his eyes off me, the way he stared at me..gosh I could feel my face getting hotter every single minute! heh! It’s been a long time since the last he stared at me in this way! Oh well, still the same word.. SO?
Saturday night, went for a birthday party over at barnone. The crowd is getting from bad to worse! Yuckz! They are either too young or trying to act cool to fit in with the usual crowd. Or am I thinking too much? hmmm… Back to the topic, as I was saying, it was a birthday party of a friend, M. But it turns to out be, I’m the main "item" in the group and not him! Males and females friends just kept coming to me. Do I look Bi??  hmmm.. another question to ponder for the day!
There’s this particular guy, J, he have been flirting with me the entired night and kept asking, do I want a drink or want to go up to Living Room with him and "best" of all sentences," What are you doing tonight?" What else? Woah more to come! Kept finding chances to kiss me, hug me and squeeze my butt! damned! No matter how far I fall back, he just keep coming on and on. Tell him off? Yes, I did but he would just give me a silly smile and said," What did you said darling?" He’s such a pest! Whatever face I gave him, he’ll just keep coming back! That’s not end of the story for that night!The group moved to Living Room, it was quite roomy at that time and the dance floor was quite empty, only a few "kittens" here and there. So, M asked me for a dance, of course the generous dancing self would never say no, led the way! Guess what? In the midst of happily dancing with M, J came up, took my hand and twirl me round, without bothering does M exist or not! Oh man! M cut the queue and continued where we left off and again J came in took my hand and dance closed to me! M tried cutting queue again and this time round I just kept my direction towards M. J walked back to our table and kept looking back at us.  I was feeling embarrassed and proud at the same time. On the empty dancefloor, two guy vying for my attention! Gosh! How "glam" it was that night! Party-goers sitting around was staring at us, I wondered what was going thru their mind! lolx Anyway, there was no fullstop to that pest stuff. J is still haunting me! I wonder when will he stop being so persistent..

Just read an article on the newspaper. I’m slightly buffed out! A facelift for Mt Faber… Sigh when will they stop taking away what’s left from the olden days? Singapore used to be clean and green… Look at her now! She’s full of lights! Not much of clean and green feel anymore.  Where has all the  good old nature gone to? Sentosa was the first big hit to me… The last time I went there, constructions  were  all around, not much places for me to walk except for the small jungle trails".  No more beach beach if you guys, who likes nature, get what I mean. Out of beach area… look around us. Do you think the trees are man-grown or they actually grow by itself?  I miss the good old greens where I can walk and smell the freshness of the it
All around us, living things and non living things are all human made. We depend on modernization a little too much I would say. We became lazy and dependent on things around us. I dont deny, modernization gave me good and easy life and at the same time it made me lazy.
Government made things "easier" (more money more money) as people complained about not enough of transport, not easy to get a transport..etc Bullshit! Excuse me for my french! But that’s the truth! Bullshit! People are getting lazy and more money minded! Sometimes it just disgust me to see my fellow Singaporean turning into people who are hunger for "face and pride" instead of being the good old humble neighbours!
This morning is really a bad one! Someone just crossed my line of patience! Spoiling my sweet little mood… I just don’t understand why can someone, every morning comes to the office and start railing about her own mom over and over again?! It just pisses me off! Do I look like a vacuum cleaner which sucks complain instead of dust?

Have you guys actually sit down and start observing one another’s character and behaviour? Have you ever wonder what the other party you’re looking at is thinking? Ever wished that you’re able to read minds? Well, I do. It’s just so interesting when you start to get one person as a target and observed him/her for at least fifteen minutes to half an hour, trying to guess what’s the person is going to do next. Okie okie.. some of you may say you have better stuff to do than to sit and watch air going by. hahahaha…
Happiness, Sad, Fear and Anger, the four important factors of our life. Emotional humans tend to be manipulate by the factors and get affected badly.  There’s this girl, A, smart girl but wasted. She has a good head on her shoulder yet she never make good use of it. Claiming that her family problems have totally tied her mind down. And because of that, she’s not able to focus well in whatever she do. Or is this just purely an excuse for shifting her irresponsible behaviour away and at the same time to make  herself look good?  Noone will know. It’s always interesting to know what actually makes one lie their way thru or put their pride down to speak the truth. For A’s case, it’s a nutty. Maybe her focusing problem is caused by her own attitude or it’s really her family problem which affected her. Have been trying to help her to work out on her problem, she did improve… but that’s for only a short period and there she goes drifting into her own world again….