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Tomorrow’s getaway to Desaru might not be as exciting as going to Bali but guess that’s what I really need at this point of time. "Less-Excitement" for this weekend! Too much happenings recently, I need a good break. I’m crossing my fingers that this trip would be a relaxing one rather than a hectic mess, well who knows what will happen!

Have checked out the facilities there, sounds good enough for me. lol Fishing? Yeah, I can get someone to teach me! Jet Ski, hmmm… I’ve not been doing that for a year but I know won’t keep my hands away from that for sure! lol Jungle Walk would be good too since I love to listen to the sounds of nature and smell the freshness from the greens! Golf? Maybe I could get someone there to teach me! lol  Swimming pool? hmmm.. maybe at night? Well, just imagine sitting near the pool, facing the sea, feeling the sea breeze brushing against my chub cheeks and sipping red wine…WOAH! I love that thought! lol One and a half day to spend there, should be able to accomplish all! hehehehe But of course, not forgetting I need to spend sometime lazing around the beach!

I’m going to leave all my "baggages" in Singapore and head down to an island of  slow heartbeat.

All have gone well..

Bought her a small cute little piggy just to show my sincerity (guess I was a fool huh? i just can’t pass that obsticle which I built for myself) lol She said,"Next time don’t buy me anything, I’m not angry. I’m just wondering should I continue with my nonsense or just let you be." That sentence got me thinking again..

In between humans unpleasant exchange, definitely there must be one to do the back off act, if not we would have seen WWIII, WWIV, so on and so forth. But backtrack of the situation, if I never back off, how would things have ended to be like? Would she be the one backing off? Or cold war will sparked off just because of a small silly matter?

Does Singaporeans have the guts to say," Sorry, am I forgiven?" or they just walk with their nose led by a leash? Or they waited for the best time to apologize but not immediately after the incident?
One of my cute friend told me, I’m sweet and thoughtful cos I did something which not many people would. Is that true? hmm…

This is definitely going to torture me the rest of the day! I’m quite bothered with how I behaved during lunch with AT. I’m feeling kind of embarrassed about it. Told R, he said I don’t have to feel that way as she’s the one who started invading my privacy and she thinks it’s just a casual chat but to others it might not just be that casual. No matter how he consoled me, I still feel bad. I feel like going for a walk in the vincinity. Take a break..
Looking at her face and see the way she behaves? Mixed emotions.. throughly blended well like Ice Blended Mocha! I do not know how to talk to her anymore, neither do I know how to behave towards her. All of the sudden, I felt a sharp pierce in my brain, knowing what she’s thinking right at that moment when she looked at me. She’s defending against me, her words are as cold as ice, as sharp as needles, pierce right through my face when I merely just asked her," Candidate giving you troubles again?" I backed off…

Sometimes, when thinking back on the things you shouldn’t have done or said, regrets start to invade you in silence.  But it’s just too late to turn back the time to undo everything. Guess the conclusion would be, think twice before action or before you speak.

Words and tone of voice kills…

Just had an unpleasant one with AT over something which i would like to keep deep within myself (secret..shh..) She kept asking," Why? How come? Oh really?! Who’s friend? What friend?House Party? Pub?"..etc The little snake in me, snared at her sharply. I couldn’t help it. She just irritates me, telling her stuff that is not her main concern and about people she don’t know..whatever for?  Her tone and her voice, just got me feeling uncomfortable. If L were to ask me the same exact questions, I know I won’t snared at her. Not because I know L for a long time, it’s because of the tone and behaviour! But AT? To her, it’s just a normal chat but to me it’s just something which I don’t feel like talking about, something which I do not want to share. I thought one sentence is enough to shut her up but she kept pushing me to the edge. I’m sorry AT, I just couldn’t help it but behaving that way.
Maybe she don’t mean to prompt me further but her curiosity just kept her going on. Well, at least I do show her that side of me, it’s better than keeping my mouth shut and stabbed her deep on her back. I’m not one of those stupid bitch. I can see from her eyes that she’s getting a little angry. So I tried to explain to her nicely why but she just keeping thinking of something else. DUHZ! That really got me right in the head.. I talk like a "bullet train" and hands’ gesture like as if I’m having fits! lol But.. I’m not angry! Just uncomfortable and irritated with her tone and the way she thinks.
I’m going to say the same exact thing as what my boss asked me," WHY? XXX WHY?! WHY SHE JUST DON’T GET IT?!" 
I never knew that her tone and behaviour would get into my head one day. And that one day happened to be today. I’ve apologized to her for my bad behaviour but she never apologize for intruding into my privacy. How rude.. Alright, I shouldn’t blamed her for anything. It’s just only a small harmless matter. But I guess we’ve just created a deep cut in between us…

Humans always love to think only for themselves. It’s always me, me, me. Nothing about others. Not caring about how the others would feel. Yes, it’s not right to always care about how others feel and forgetting about ownself but that doesn’t give them a good excuse that people would have to accept their rude behaviour. Those "Self-People" always thought that others would not mind on how they behaved as they know their character well. Guess that’s where the problem would start flowing from and ends at a never ending land.

Boss called me the "virus spreader"! lolx I’ve been having this "virus" since last week, I wonder who I caught it from! Medication doesn’t seems to make me feel any better.. I’ve tried most stuff, hoping it would stop the itch in the throat and the running mucus from my nose. heh! The blockage in my nose is causing me to snore when I sleep!!! I’m totally disgust with that loud snore! I’ve read articles about people dying from snoring! lol Would I be one of them? With the Straits Times Headlines go "Girl with Blockage in Nose Snored, Died in Bed With a Smile" lol That would be funny!

Don’t know what got into me today, both my cousins’ face kept flashing in my mind when I was in the bank, queueing to deposit the cheques for boss. Kind of miss those days, it was fun. Kids fun. I remembered one incident very clearly, three of us were being chased by a mouse round the chair. As being the youngest, smallest in size and "stupidest" among the three (at that time, now I don’t think so!), cousins have already stop circling the chair, climb onto one of the chair standing against the side wall. I was still running for "my little life" lol When I stopped and climb onto the chair, the mouse stopped and waited for me patiently, which actually gave my uncle a good chance to catch that mousey! lol The two cousins of mine are very smart, especially the male one. The female one? She’s my "bully target" and my "Idol"! I can’t resist disturbing or teasing her whenever we meet up! lol Are you reading this, my dearest JL? lol  I know you like it! Stop pouting! You look like the Koi fish up in Mt Faber! lol 
Hearing JL getting married, my heart feels both happy and confused. Happy is because she’s getting married at last, as she’ve been whinning about how old she is now and unmarried. Peace to my ears.. lol Confusing part is, I want her to be happy but is this guy really for her? She’s my fav cousin, I would want her to have the best! But I don’t deny seeing slightly good changes in her. A princess-like kind of character and have chose a Mr Little Ego Man as her life time partner..hmmm.. I really wonder.. Well, whatever it is, I would plead God, to bless her with happiness.. Now, JL, don’t go googoo gaa gaa over Joey huh! I know you’re touched! lol
When I told mama about cousin’s wedding, she gave me a puppish look followed by,"When is my dear girl going to get married? Will I get to see her married?" Well, the story never ends! That’s my cute mama! lol Whoever met her before, would definitely agree to my previous sentence! lol

What a weekend! Guess God wants me to learn it from the hard way huh? Oh well, lesson indeed learnt! The next time I won’t bring my bag along, even if I do, I’ll hold it so tight that not even a sumo wrestler can separate it from me!

Friday night was really a good one. Met up with SN, had a great "ladies night out". We were bitching through out the night! What else can women do when they are being put together? Especially those talkative ones? Gossips!!! lol Too many stuff to talk about, a night is definitely not enough!
I was a little shocked when I saw SN, she was grew thin! Not slim but thin! SN darling, please hold on tight to something the before the light wind blows you away! lol As chatty as before but not as noisy! lolx I do sense a change in her but I just can’t find the right words to describe about her.  hmmm…
Saturday night, felt alittle reluctant to go down to BN as I was still having my running nose and cough. Guess what did Mr Crazy Donk suggest? He sent me a sms," Please repeat 10,000 times of I’m fine and I want to go down to BN." Well, made a last minute decision and went off to BN.
The night started off badly and ends with a tear. My bag was missing! Friends and I went round searching the whole vincinity but energy were waste for nothing. At that point of time, one person came floating into my mind, I picked up my phone and dial his number. "Hello.." came at the other end of the line. My tears just fell. I’ve no idea why I felt so emotional when I hear his voice. His soft voice just draws me closer to him. He offered to meet me at the police station as he was not staying far away from where I’m suppose to go. I gasped and held my breathe for a while, on the other end, "Hello? Are you alright?" broke the silence. He’s an angel, sent to me by God. Although he looks a little puffy on his face! lol
After the whole wooha, I thanked him for being there for me. He said,"If we were to exchange position, you would have done the same for me too."

The bags were returned BUT ransacked. The person who came to return my bag looks scared. I wonder why…Wallets were all empty out, keychains and keys are separated and perfume is found somewhere else.. Strange isn’t it?
Argh.. I’m feeling very sleepy, because of this, I couldn’t sleep! My sentences seems to be dancing and jumbled. Better stop writing.. Will update soon..

Did a small little survey about myself with a few of my friends. All of them came up with all sorts of funny answers! lolx
The question was : What do you think of me?

Ladies:

SC: Wild, Fun-Loving, Crazy, Bubbly, Strict at times (oh really SC? lolx), Optimistic kind of person (hmm…)

AT: Not Stupid (what is that suppose to mean huh?), Funny at times (I thought all along I’m funny!), Very Kind, Bitchy at times (ohhh.. Definitely!) Sufficient IQ (???? You’ve just stumped me!)

Ire2: Crazy girl, Super make-up skills (I think she said that is becos she’s a make up dummy!Whoopsy!), Sexy Dancer (oh yeah!), When pissed she’s loud and full of vulgarities (Is your mindset still retained in the year of 2000?I don’t do that anymore.. lol ) Sexy, Friendly, Jovial, Fun-Loving, Someone who loves to arouse people with her dancing moves (When did I do that?! Did you get aroused sweetie?Let’s do a lap dance!), A 24 hours Standby Friend (Ire2, You asked me to cut and paste.. You lazy bum!)

SN: Very Straight-Forward, Stubbon, Say and Do as she wants (Woahhh I like that! Gonna give you one big smoochie when I see you!  hehehe What colour do you prefer, Red or Pink?)
 

… more to come.. after my lunch! Remember to catch the results from the guys!!!!

Okie back from lunch!

Here’s the results from the guys:

Adrian: Nice, Funny, Smart (Am I???)

A: Cute, Sweet, Sexy (hmmm…bending down or standing up? lol)

Cov: Very fat, very hyper, very cute, blur at times, bright at the others, (what is that suppose to mean?!), easy to make fun of (no wonder! Always been bullied by you! Evil-doer!)

D: Wacky, Fun-Loving, Lovely at times (Am I not lovely all the time??? gee..You said at times, what about the rest of the time? Ugly?chez..lol), Good to friends (Of course! Needless to say!), Always been taken advantage of (Really?! That bad?! Oh no… in other words, I trust people too easily?hmm…), Wildful (When?! Where?!)

JJ: Friendly, Nice, Bubbly, Talkative, Pretty, Frank, Playful, Stubbon, Crazy (I’ve no complains!)

L: Cool Chic, Nice Eyes, Great Lips, Funny, Open to talk about anything, Reckon will be great in bed too (Damned! Have you been fantasizing about me?! Down Boy Down! lolx Unfortunately, I’m bad at it! lolx And please do not ask me to kneel! Not for you, sweet! Get your bud to! lol *wink*), Adventurous

SK: Friendly, Cheerful, Approachable, Lady with a kind of Charisma, Sophisticated Girl with her own way of thinking (Very gentleman!)

That’s all for today! And if anyone who knows me and wants to add comments, please do!

There’s two purposes for this survey if you read carefully.

1) How people look at others, be it females or males, in what way and what comes first.

2) What they look at others first would actually tells you what kind of person they are and what kind of people they usually like to mixed with.

Any opposes?

And last but not least, I would like to thank those who have helped me with this small survey! Now I know what you guys think of me!

Weird morning it is! Feeling sluggish, lazy, sleepy and dehydrated! There you go, ask me why! I’m not feeling perfect, that’s the answer. Fever invading soon… I hate this feeling, can’t feel my head sitting on my shoulder! WHERE’S MY HEAD?! Anyway, shouldn’t be grunting about it in here.

This morning had a nice chat with D.  As usual, still the same old crazy horny donkey! Hear me D? Crazy horny donkey you are! Hee Hawww!!! I miss his crazy behaviour! Haven’t seen this crazy donk for at least a few months. And this crazy donk printed out my blog, used it for his english corrections lesson! Damned donk! lolx I think I’ve to go back to school to build up my foundation huh donk? hehehehe

Thinking back, I do have lots of friends, some stay and some just disappeared without saying goodbye. Different people have different ways of leading their lives and have different goals to achieve. Some knocked on your window and say hi then bye; some knocked on your door, get into your house and get out with an angry face after a long stay; some breaked into your house, make a mess of it and left with a grinned; some just walked in and left a footprint to remind you that they have been there and last but not least, some walked straight in and stayed there to stand by you.

Last pic, compliments from the same friend enjoying his holiday in Thailand

Misty, misty morning! Nice! Should have my camera with me when I’m on my way to the office! Damned!
I like it when noone is around in the office, it’s so quiet and I can just do whatever I want before A walks in and start showing her gloomy face and disturbing the "quietness" of the cosy office. Her voice is so loud that when she talks on the phone in the office, boss and I would chase her to the backroom. Why? ‘Coz she’s giving us a headache! lolx Whoopsy! Got to stop bitching around! hehehe

Yesterday was on the phone with one of my  precious girlfriend, I just couldn’t stop giggling when I hear her voice! BitCH! You know who you are! lolx Miss S! I’m really looking forward to this coming Friday, to seeing her! Heard from our hairstylist, she’ve grown very skinny! hmmm… nothing for me to poke! What a waste! Talking about her, kind of miss the time when we hang out, miss her loud weird laughter and her big eyes with long lashes (yeah like a doll). i’m still wrecking my brains where should we go on friday! Damned! It hurts to think where to go in Singapore! lolx Most of the places I’ve already been to. The rest? Nay, they are just rubbish!

Another pic, compliments from my friend still enjoying his holiday in Thailand..

After hearing stories from my friends about their broken marriage, it got me thinking a little and feeling little insecure. Like baby kangeroon fell out of mama kangaroo’s pocket!
Some people say "It’s a 50/50 investment, it’s either you risk it or you just keep it all in your pocket where you find it’s the safest." And some others say, "Just go with the flow, God has a plan for you." That’s comforting!!!  Some even better still, saying, "That’s life, as some of us have to go through a certain stage to learn, humans are stubbon, you know?" What do I think? Seriously, I’ve no idea at all after seeing so many "dramas".
Last night I was wondering, how would mine turn out to be… Good guys can turned into bad guys too! Well, okie I must say sometimes both parties would be at fault when situations churned out to be that ugly. Maybe it’s the female ain’t loving or caring enough? too fierce? or too possessive? Maybe it’s the guy who feels that he still deserve total freedom even after marriage? or sex with wife doesn’t satisfy his huge appeitite? or he’s just an asshole? Well, I can never figure that out! Females would say they are not at fault and men claimed it’s the wife fault that he did all those foolish things. Whom to believe? None! Both are just trying to shift faults to one another, trying to look as innocent as possible. Who would call out Thief when himself is the thief?
Discuss with R about this matter on Sunday, he looked at me as if he has never seen me before! lolx That expression was really funny! And he stroked my cheeks then hold my hands and said," You’ll be fine. Don’t worry." Wow Wow Wow! Scary and exciting at the same time! Well, guess that’s the reason why, I just couldn’t make myself really commit into him. Alrighty! I’m a scady kat! But that suppose to be norm!

And the recent event, makes me shudder even more.. I’ve talked to that particular guy , he asked me to take it easy as things happened in a natural path, yeah.. I’m trying, just that I couldn’t cross the obsticle which I’ve created for myself YET. Guess it takes alittle more time than I expected. Hey blockhead! If you’re reading this, good! lolx As I’ve said many times,  I’m not that kind of girl, which it seems to be getting worse each time I tried to explain myself. hahahaha

Conclusion? Hasn’t met a guy who can really makes me stop shuddering… lolx
Here’s another pic compliment from my friend who’s having a good time in thailand!