I am amazed in what I was told and what I have seen, story and scene doesn’t seems to match! Woah… But I am glad it happened or else I would have sunk in deeper! Oh well, I guess sometimes certain things do lured human mind to believe in lies totally and create vision to lead human to make mistakes which they should not have made.
Just read a classmate’s blog, what she wrote on her blog was really touching.. It’s was taken from a song call the Graduation Song by Vitamin C.
Come to think of it, the song really hit right on the spot! It makes me wonder, after graduation will the crazy bunch of us be as close as we were during school days even though we will be heading different paths. Maybe..maybe not for some of us.
Throughout the entire 5 semesters, many things happened in a good and bad way. Some of us left the group, some of us sticked to the group, some of us create a new group, some of us ain’t talking to the others and so on so forth. It has been great spending the ups and downs with my crazy bunch of classmates. We shared tears, fears, happiness & hardship together and that is something which I would bring it with me to the end of my lifespan.
Conclusion, it is easy to find friends to laugh at you while you’re in jail and say this to you," How stupid can you be? We ran away and you should follow right up, not sit there laughing and get caught, silly bird!". It would be hard to find friends who would sit next to you in jail and say," Damned! That was good fun! Let’s do it again!"
Where has all the Exciting, Sexy, Dirty & Passion in clubs fly to?
When was the last time I tried partying hard besides last Sat? Damned! I think I am suffering from dementia or is the party scene really not as good as before?
Anyway, R’s cousin & friends had fun last Sat! Nothing that exciting actually. We hopped from one club to another and stopped in MOS. We were so disappointed with the club’s huge crowd. NOONE.. I repeat, NOONE was dancing and enjoying themselves!!! All they do was just MOVING or rather swaying.. What’s wrong with the youngsters nowadays? Afraid that they might break their bones if they SWAY too hard? Or too shy to show that they could dance?! Gosh! And the people on the podium.. man oh man.. sway..sway..sway…AND sway… What’s wrong with you people? Is swaying in trend now? Alrighties, maybe SWAYING is really in trend, I’ll try to sway with the crowd next time IF there is a next time!
Complete disaster! I do not like to see people going to clubs and not enjoying themselves, it is so pathetic! I guess, that is one of the reason why I am gradually dying off in the party scene. Everywhere we go, people sway…
I just could not stop comparing the days when party scene was WILD, HUGE, AWESOME, CRAZY..etc to what I am looking at now. Year 2007 clubs gives me a totally CLEAN & INNOCENT feeling and not the EXCITING, SEXY & DIRTY scene which I used to see in Year 2000 clubs. I don’t mean dirty in the sense of drugs and what-so-ever not. I meant people got down to serious thang - dirty passionate dance (lines of girls-girls, boys-boys or girls-boys). What I see now is girlie-girlie "you-touchmealittle-I-touchyoualittle" just for show and not for passion & excitement.
Lastly, I would like to say to those people who patron clubs : PLEASE, MOVE HARDER! IF YOU WANT TO SWAY, STAY AT HOME! DON’T WASTE THE SPACE IN THE CLUBS! AND GIRLS, MOVE THAT CUTE LITTLE ARSE OF YOURS, YOU CAN MOVE BETTER THAN SWAYING-YOU KNOW THAT! ha~
*Enjoy to the fullest, do not let roaming eyes put you down!*
I am dead serious!
Alrighty! Enough is enough! I had enough of not being able to fit into my dresses at certain "area"! I am getting frustrated at how quickly I am turning into a fat, restless piece of walking meat and killing my heart in a way that most people are still at it. That’s it… I am going to return to my "3rd home" & get into better shape. This time round, I hope I can stick with it for long and not for only a few months or just a year. No more snacking, no more sodas, no more ice-cream, have more vegetable and less meat. Oh, and not forgetting less rice & bread. It was a bad move by stopping my beloved workout and martial arts.
Not the stopping of workouts killed my motivation, it’s my love for food buries it deep down to the ground.
Men vs Women? or Local Men vs Local Women?
Read an article from a magazine about women’s thoughts on "Does Caucasian Men Make Better Boyfriends?" The poll = unknown.
I was in deep thoughts about this article while observing the people in the same train with me when I was on my way home. Why do local women think that local men are unromantic, too traditional, too possessive, too lazy, love playing the blaming game, etc and why does local men thinks that local females are high maintenance, too independent, too demanding, hard to understand what females want, changes mind like the weather all the time, etc (based on all the past & current survey). Is that all true? As a local female, I would say yes and no to all the above about men and females and not based on where they are from. Most men and females are not in the same frequency most of the time, as they do not like to speak their mind directly for fearing the other party would be angry or make a big fuss out of nothing. BUT if just focusing only on the locals, I would say (based on my observations on what I heard & see):
IF the local women are willing to STOP giving men hints about what they want/to do, stop pretending to be what they are not, stop expecting too much of a man, stop raking up the past, stop being so timid, stop making fuss/crying over something small, stop lying to themselves, stop throwing tantrums, stop talking so much and not listen, not to take things too far, stop being so negative about things, not to dream too much, and START to be themselves, being contented with what they have on hand rather than sulking over what they don’t have and maybe they should start to think rationally over things which are about to happen/surfaced and lastly start treating a man right, wouldn’t it be great?
vice versa
IF the local men, stop thinking about themselves too much, stop bragging, stop their empty promises, stop taking things too lightly, stop taking things for granted, stop forgetting the females existence, stop being so sour, stop trying to be MCP, stop trying to act macho, stop trying to please women for the sake of trying, stop hiding away from problems, and START to be a little more sensitive towards situation, listen to what female got to say for once and be rational about things, maybe be a little more romantic in the relationship (that wouldn’t make a man a whimp!) and stop hiding but observed on how things are going between two parties, start thinking on sharing/doing/learning something new together and lastly start making a woman feel special, wouldn’t it be great?
It is always the communication break down which causes problem to surface. And by separating the races and pointing out their good points and stepping on the other’s downside, what good would that be to anybody? As referring to the article, some females said that caucasian men falls into the category of what they want and not the local men. Excuse me, what about men from other countries? Aren’t they are men too? Have they forgotten about them? My colleague and I had a discussion about this during our small "outing" and she said," I believe it’s all about the character. Not about the race." That I would raise my hands and legs to agree. Look at those happy marriage of local/cross-races/foreign men & females (for 10 over years), aren’t they are the best proof? Why must we separate the issues into many pieces? Men from anywhere are still men, think like men, do things like men and women from anywhere are still women, think like women, behave like women. The only differences which I can point out are the different upbringing and the influence from the environment/people they meet.
Another point which I would like to point out from the article, some local females picked caucasian men as "Flings". Yes & no, in my own opinion. It takes two hands to clap for things to happened. Mind you, local females do go for local men for "Flings" too. I would say, not all caucasian men (based on the pool of caucasian men I know) would accept fling as part of their life, even though casual sex may developed in certain circumstances and that I prefer not to speak too much of. BUT THEN AGAIN, how many local men don’t do casual sex? I am not surprised that there are many local men out there having casual sex as I type now. So as I mentioned on the above, whatever colour the men/women is, they are still what they are. Nothing more, nothing less.
I think such polls should come to an end, what’s so biggy deal about the differences between "colours" & relationship?
Feeling like a lucky midget
"WOW!!! Damned I am a lucky midget!" That was how exactly I said it in my head when I was out with Mr R’s cousin, S and his groupmates. S and his groupmates are having a 3 months attachment in Singapore and so being Joey, I offered to bring them out for movie. S and one of his groupmate are so darn lucky and are the "envious icons" of all men, wishing that they are in S & his groupmate’s position! Working with bikini babes almost everyday! Darn lucky, they are!
Anyway, back to the midget issue. Can you imagine me, 1.6m tall, standing in between two guys who are 1.9m and 1.96m?! Damned! And they told me that their height is considered normal back at home?! Oh man, if i were to step into Norway, what would I be? Midget or Dwarf? Or Troy? Fat short and cute! ha~
I was just telling a friend that how many times would a normal looking girl like me, get so lucky to go out with two simply gorgeous men at one time? I mean really gorgeous in the outer and beautiful in the mind kind of men and being the "envious icon" of all women on the street? Not many huh! One of them told me, he hates Singapore because he miss his beautiful girlfriend back at home. Oh man, how many guys would actually really think like him? Maybe I am naive, maybe I am stupid to believe what he said or maybe I am too ugly for him to look at but then again, how many gorgeous men would say such a thing to sort of boost their ego? I guess not many would.
This small outing made me think, how many beautiful people such as the above I have mentioned, have I actually encountered in my life till date. The answer is, just as many fingers I have on my left and right hand.
Who moved my Cheese?
This book has gotten me thinking again. In a good way, of course. The small phrases in there caught hold of certain past memories of mine. And my mind goes,"What if I never….", "What will happen if I stayed…","If I got up and stand firm, would the…", etc… the word "IF" just goes on and on until I finished the book (less than an hour if you guys are wondering). While reading the book, I came to realise that, I "know" the characters in the book very well! It somehow relates the characters to certain people I know and of course myself too.
Some people are just as stubbon as one of the mentioned character, always dislike changes, believe in own’s perception too much, do not like to leave their comfort zone and allowing fear to cloud their mind and hold them back. And of course not forgetting, they do not like to see the truth, always trying to imagine things are going against them, kept telling themselves that everything will be fine again just like before, strongly believes in their own imagination and resist changes even though they know that changes are good for them. Strange isn’t it? I thought so too.
But some people are totally the opposite of what were mention above! Wow wow wow! This book really motivates me and I think it had just brought me to the door of next level in life!
Starting Afresh with a Clear State of Mind But with a Contridicting Heart… (People with weak mind, please stop here! As per advice from Dr. F.J.)
A new job, new boss, new colleagues, new environment, new roles and stepping up the next level in life. Everything seems so new but scary as I have no idea what’s coming up next. But one thing I know for sure, is that, I do not have to suffer "mental torture", carrying a heavy heart and fearing mind to work everyday.
New things aside, I am actually wondering how is Big Nose. The things he said and did to me was intolerable BUT as the person I am, I had to forgive him. Whatever it is, he is the one who taught me a lot about life, humans and of course, myself. In another words, he changed me without myself realising it.
It was a nasty experience but then again, it was a good nasty one. Many people said, he well deserved whatever he is getting now. But I see it as, I wish him well. No matter what, he will still be my best nasty mentor. I know he hates me for leaving him in lurch at the time when he needed me most, but he have forgotten that sometimes, enough is enough. Contridicting? Yes, it is. A nice man but a nasty mind. Contridicting? Yes, it is. Someone said," Life is actually very simple and pleasant but human beings just can’t help complicating it and forgot to take in mind about the consequences which they have to carry for life. " Strange? Yes, it is.
Mr. R and my mom told me that they see a change in me after I left that "place". I am smiling from the bottom of my heart, once again. I am Joey again. The Joey who likes to be silly and smiley. I am back on line people!!! Watch out!!! hee~ 
It has been a long time since I last updated my blog! Whew.. I was seriously BUSY! Too many things had happen since my last blog.
1) I QUIT my job (Big news to those who loves me!)
2) My grandmother passed away (Don’t be sorry, it is just "pnp" of life and I have gotten over it. Life still have to go on)
3) I found a new interesting job (Big news too, to those who loves me extra!)
4) Went through a hard time resigning (Seriously, those people are sick and unreasonable!)
5) Busy studying for my exams and unexpectedly I passed! (Quick! Congratulate me!)
6) Busy with my new job. Trying to cope almost everything which was hand to me. Busy but I love the way it goes!
7) Trying to ease the pain of certain people but I think I failed. Yes, once again I am back to being the nosey posey me!
Trying to get back my shape which I once had many years ago (I think I am getting seriously lazy! Where has all my motivation gone to I wonder!)
Everything seems to be falling apart at one time and falling back into places at another. And through all these, I learnt not to endure when I don’t have to and stick to the decisions that I have made. Some people just love seeing me crashed but then again, I am Faith Joey, nothing brings me down.
The new job? Woah! Totally cool! It enables me to grow with the job. First day at work, it was all tough but worthwhile. Sometimes after work I would say to myself, this job is just so me! ha~! It is a very customer-oriented kind of industry. It matches requirements to what customers’ need and not much of what they want. And my working environment? Woahhhh! They are a combination of strong-willed, motivated, "think-out-of-the-box", systematic, cheerful and gorgeous married/single women! They sound too good to be true? Well, they are real so eat your hearts out guys! They are always tired but very happy on what they had achieved at the end of the day. I never knew that I could work well with women but this company proves me wrong. Seeing how they work, makes me even much more determine to prove to myself that my work-ability is way beyond my imagination!
A New Start with Polished and Oiled Engine
2006 has been strange but not too bad. I’m crossing my fingers for a better year! 2007 is a new year and I’m going to get my engine polished and oiled! Everything is going to change, hopefully my raft is going to sail as smoothly as… how my LS came out from my Sss an hour ago! I know it’s a disgusting but that’s the only thing which came into my mind at the moment! Can’t help it! Anyway, my start of the year was quite a funny one! Gotta go! Everyone Have a Great Year!!! Muaakz! Love ya!
